How Close Can I Get?

Yesterday I took a walk

through the woods,

 and suddenly

the deer appeared.

Six pairs of ears.

Then eight.

And two small ones,

babies.

For the first time,

I got fairly close to them.

And we looked at each other.

For a fairly long time.

Just staring.

I wonder,

how close I can get.

Facing My Dark Side

I look at my character defects of jealousy, resentment, fear, control, not thinking things through, holding onto things, not getting the facts, not setting boundaries, getting bruised, ruminating about bad memories, being dependent, not trusting, being unforgiving, not trusting, low self esteem, being dependent, intolerant, prideful and I realize these things do me no good.  We all have character defects -- it helps to be honest so we can let them go.

For today, I trust the process, forgive myself and others, practice tolerance, and open mindedness.

I have to be ENTIRELY  ready to have God remove them.  "My creator, I am now ready to have you remove every defect of character that stands in the way of my usefulness to you and my fellows.  Grant me strength as I go out from here to do your bidding."

I am teachable.  I am open to new people and opportunities.

"24 Hours of Happy"

http://24hoursofhappy.com/



Pharrel Williams' infectious song called "Happy," which was up for best song at the Oscars.  (Should have won, lost out to Let it Go).

I love the videos of ordinary people dancing to the song, love the pace, the beat.  17 millions hits and counting!

Letter to God

Dear God,

I feel more isolated in Tarboro than I did living on an island in Alaska.  This is an exclusive community that doesn't reach out to the marginalized.  It's going backward in time.  I need more.  More contact with family, more social events, more program.

Be with me God, as I go forward.

My Year of Miracles

     A few nights ago, I was at ECU for a play performance.  We had had an ice storm that morning and the sidewalks were coated.  I suddenly found myself gliding.  Miracle of miracles, I did not fall.  I stayed upright.  This is the goal to stay upright, stay relaxed, and keep walking.

"God With Skin On"

My group is like that,

My friends in Raleigh

Sometimes I struggle

with the idea of God.

Where is he is in life?

He is with me and guiding me now.

He is in my friends when

we share openly, without

any need to impress.

It's good to be open.

With no worries that what I say 

will be repeated.

God is with me and

guiding me now.

He has protected me.

I have coped.

Coped like 

the bridge that hangs

securely over the

crevices,

until I'm safe on

the other side.

[wow, my house sold about a month after this was published!]

My Year of Miracles

Day 9

24hoursofhappy.com

This video should get the Nobel Peace Prize!

Just be...

HAPPY!